In December of 2015 I found out that my wife was pregnant and we were only married for a couple of months and I was struggling to find work. The previous job I had, they closed the position I was hired for. I was stressed and worried what was going to happen next. My wife and I were living with my parents. Some people would say we made a bad decision planning a kid without a stable income. My wife a few days after we got married came back with me to Toronto from the state of New York with nothing. When I mean nothing, I literally mean it. All she had was the clothes on her back and the mahr(gift) I gave her. It’s not like this battle was new to us and we strive with challenges like this. I felt bad for putting my wife in a situation like this but she always reminded me that I am doing my best and Allah is Ar-Razzaq (the provider).
Every night starting December of 2015, when we found out about her pregnancy, I woke up a half hour before fajr and prayed tahajjud. Making duaa (supplication) with tears falling from my cheeks asking for a change. Life was hard, unpredictable and hectic. I didn’t ask my parents for a penny to help us and I’ve alwaaaaaaaays been that way. They would offer to help but I’d refuse because my wife is my responsibility and not theirs. They were already doing so much by letting us stay. Months would go by and I’d still wake up in the middle of the night, half hour before fajr to pray tahajjud and beg Allah to change my situation. I was putting in the effort every single day! Applying to jobs, dropping off applications, going to job agencies and nothing! My wife would look at me and would see the stress on my face, on my body, the way I slept at night. It was worrisome for her but not once did she yell at me or tell me if you don’t find a job, I am leaving you! She constantly encouraged me and told me, it’s okay, Allah knows best and He is the best of planners. You are doing an amazing job! Allah see’s you are trying. It was April 2016 and all I had was $1.07 in my bank account. You read that right. I was damn near broke! With a baby on the way in 4 months, married, I didn’t know where to turn. I wanted to give up praying tahajjud because I felt that nothing was happening and I am doomed! I didn’t give up! I kept waking up every single day until May 2016, that’s when things changed.
One morning in May 2016 my duaas (supplication) were answered. The weight on my shoulders were lifted and every single worry I had was gone. Finally got a job and life changed! My duaa(supplication) was answered. For that particular job I was making duaa (supplication) for 5 years. I was persistent. I never gave up! Today, our daughter is two and we also have a 10 month old son, alhamdulilah!
One advice I can give you all is that Allah’s promise is true! Rely on Him and Insha’Allah (if Allah wills) your situation can change. Allah wants you to turn to Him in good and bad situations and to be always be thankful and know your duaas(supplications) aren’t going unheard.
People think marriage is a burden but it isn’t. It’s a beautiful blessing. It comes with so much that is unexpected because Allah said:
“And marry those among you who are single (male and female). If they be poor, Allah will enrich them out of His bounty.” [Surah Nur, 32]
I am proof of this struggle. Not because of so called “bad” decisions. No! The marriage, baby and no job was the will of Allah and His way of testing me by wanting me to turn him and Allah is the best of planners. Life is written and where you turn to and how you turn to can write the rest of your life out. In the end, as Muslims we know what we were created for and that is to please Allah. Insha’Allah we do our best in pleasing Him because success is only from Him and Him alone.
Insha’Allah this post encourages many of to never give up in life and continue to be ambitious towards your goals! Wake up before fajr, 10, 20, 30 mins before and ask Allah to guide to the straight path and to open doors in ways that is pleasing to Him, to help you become successful in this life and the hereafter.