My Journey Ends

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It is 1:20AM, Thursday morning and I’m here at my desk in my living room thinking about a lot of things. I’ve actually been thinking about this quite a lot lately but there has always been something inside of me that turns me away from getting it off my chest and my mind.

I’ve been writing for more than a decade and if you don’t know where it all began, I wrote a blog post about it titled “Punishments Into A Blessing.” As many of you all know, 340 subscribers to my blog, I write about positivity and doing my best to help others going through trials and hardships. Everything within these pages and hundreds of articles posted with pictures and words, all have something I’ve been through in my life that I don’t regret and have learned to let go learning lessons from and now those lessons teach you or have taught you insha’Allah.

It has just been lately, perhaps it is writers block or it could be something else but it has been very difficult to write and it has been draining me to come up with something and I am not the type of person to force myself to write. Maybe it is just me being difficult with myself and not wanting to write? Maybe, I just give a lot of myself into these words, hoping it reaches as many people as possible and getting little to no reaction. I know, I don’t write with the intent of being famous or recognized but i write with the intent of these words helping people. I guess….. I just give a lot of who I am into each of these words that when there is nothing on the other side, visible, showing what has been done, it does become discouraging. Then I see people who are not writing to help encourage others but instead do pranks, fashion or posing become an instant hit, while not teaching much or anything at all to its viewers.

Am I jealous of other people’s success? Perhaps I am but only because I want to reach as many people as they have. I honestly don’t care about the fame nor being celebrated, I care about helping other people overcoming battles they are going through. I guess, I just don’t understand why I am put in a position like this. When you want to make the world a better place and people gather to be entertained by make up, pranks, and a cult like following, then you know, society has been dumb downed and the external is worth more than the eternal.

Maybe it is time, I take a step back from writing and leave what is on this blog and on social media and just find myself. I don’t want to but I feel I have to. Not because my journey has ended but has been paused due to the lack of belief in myself? Is that negativity you are reading? Yes, it is, I am human of course. I can only give so much of me and in the process, I lose myself along the way, trying to reshape people’s thoughts about themselves and how they feel about the world.

There is nothing that makes me happier than seeing people benefit from my work but, I too need to benefit from it and take my own words as advice. I love writing and it is an escape, almost like a fantasy, a drug that I don’t want to end but for now, I think it is best I end this journey temporarily. I can be unpredictable and I may be back tomorrow, maybe next week or maybe next year, which is close but I don’t know when i’ll be back.

I just hope whoever has read my book, read this blog, read my posts on social media, has benefited and it helped changed your life or helped you in some way. There is no other reason why i write, except to help people. My journey ends tonight Thursday November 27th, 1:56AM with the sound of rain and a heavy heart. I need to find myself and where I am headed today. Just need to gather my thoughts, pick myself up and see where this journey will lead me. I have not given up, just need time for myself, to gather my thoughts, my beliefs and go from there.

For now, I leave you with As’salam walikhum (peace be upon you). Insha’Allah, I will return…

Young People Wanting To Be In Love

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This is the same advice I gave to my younger sister who is no longer “young” and my younger cousins:

If you are 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, there is no need for you to be in a relationship. All that will do to you is break your heart over and over and over again, only for you to grow bitter in age, become insecure and hurt yourself in the process. At the same time, you expect these men after them to fix what has been broken and that is your mind and especially our heart. Not a single individual in this world can fix that for you except Allah and yourself. At such a young age, there is only a need to work on yourself and nobody else. You have so much potential at that age that can be ruined because of a man whose only need at that…

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Do not let your past burden you but let it help you grow stronger to become the person you always wanted to be. Don’t neglect your future by reminding
yourself of failures, they will always be there but let your failures from the past be a bridge to letting you become successful by taking all your experiences and being a stronger version of yourself.

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Practicing brothers and sisters are being turned away for marriage because parents hold onto their tribe and egos more than their deen (religion). They fear the backlash and criticism of people and family more than they fear Allah.

Then parents also have outrageous demands for dowry, only for the brother to walk away empty handed, while walking through the door with hopes of a blessed marriage. For parents it was greed, for the other it was love and a new journey but ended with a heartbreak.

If it is not your skin colour, then it is your lack of degree. If it isn’t your wealth, then it is your culture and tribe. How sad is it that we value what will soon be insignificant over what matters the most, which is character and religious commitment?

Marriage has turned into the highest bidder with dowry. The lightest skin complexion, tribe association and your degree with profession. If you don’t fit the 4, you aren’t approved as if you are applying for a credit card with bad credit history.

The Prophet Muhammad (peace & blessings be upon him) said: “A woman may be married for four things: her wealth, her lineage, her beauty, or her religious commitment. Choose the one who is religiously-committed, may your hands be rubbed with dust (i.e., may you prosper).” [Bukhari]

He also said: “If there comes to you to marry (your daughter) one who with whose religious commitment and character you are pleased, then marry (your daughter) to him, for if you do not do that, there will be fitnah (tribulation) in the land and widespread corruption.” [Tirmidhi]

Islam points you towards good character and religious commitment, while people point you towards money, degrees, skin colour and tribes. One leads you towards jannah (heaven), while the other leads you towards a temporary life and Allah says:

“Know that the life of this world is but amusement and diversion and adornment and boasting to one another and competition in increase of wealth and children” [57:20]

Marriage shouldn’t be hard and marrying someone who is religiously committed with good character should be accepted. The skin colour, degrees or wealth shouldn’t matter either because we all entered the world the same and will leave the same, rich or poor.

Leave the tribalism and ego behind and follow the Qur’an and Sunnah to the best of your ability, in order to reap the fruits of success.

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As I get older, I realize my time is ticking away and all the things I’ve always planned on doing is either never going to happen or I have to start putting my plans into action. Sometimes, I tell you, Im afraid of what others think or how others will react because Im a person who speaks my mind without any hesitation. But as I get older, I worry about that less because 20 or 30 years from now, I may not be capable of doing what I’ve always wanted to do. I may not be able to speak how I wanted to speak. I may not able to write how I wanted to write, so I stopped being afraid of what others will say. I stopped being afraid of how others will look at me.

I am not a follower of any man or woman, I just get inspired by their work ethic and I tell myself, I am just as capable as all of them. If they can do it, I can do it. In 20 or 30 years, my legs may not be under me, my eyes will not be able be as good, my brain may stop functioning and eventually, I may regret my life. That’s why, I’m more motivated to get my life to where it needs to be, rather than where others want me to be. Others are always trying to invest their own plans into you, so they live it through you, while they do nothing and you end up hating your life. Im done with all that. Im done hearing how others want me to do things, now it is my time. I may not have long to live but I know for a fact, that this is my life and I am a leader!

I know, I can help change the world and help change people’s lives because Allah Subhana wa t’ala, has blessed me with the ability to help others. I don’t care about a fancy car, I don’t care about lots of money, I don’t care about fame nor being celebrated or praised. I just want to help inspire people. Help change their lives. Help them understand that you are wasting away your life doing things you don’t really want to do. You are wasting away your life chasing money when it doesn’t bring true happiness. If you enjoy doing that, then by all means, you have the freedom to do so. 

I only have one life, so Im going to live it to the best of my abilities and do as I please and do what makes me happy, while doing my best to follow the Qur’an & Sunnah. Im going to take risk and I’m prepared for whatever failures will come with it because that’s life. Nothing is going to be how you planned but how you learn from those failures and continue going will lead you to being successful in whatever it may be. There is no delaying something until next year or next month, there is only time for now because tomorrow is not promised. Each moment is a new moment for me and you to create something that wasn’t there before, by the permission of Allah Subhana wa t’ala. This is my life and I believe my purpose is to help inspire, motivate and change people’s lives. Not because there is something in it for me but because there is so much in you that you fail to see and I want to help you all see that.